Image via WikipediaI did not figure. I imagined. I visualized. I prayed. Most of all I hoped. But in no way did I actually figure. Everything had been passing me by for quite a while. Some of it involuntary and, admittedly, some voluntary. I had defeatedly settled into an existance where I was just barely surviving. I was living by the skin of my teeth and only because of my Mother’s graces. I had convinced myself that I would somehow be content having nothing. The funny thing is I knew it was a joke. I knew better. I’ve never wanted to settle. I’m a passionate ambitious guy. Well, deep down buried somewhere beneath the self-loathing and self-pity I’d been marinating in, there is a passionate ambitious guy hiding. I knew I wanted to dig him out. I had to. I was very close to tumbling off a jagged sharp cliff. Like a base jumper sans the bravado…and the intent. Like the theme of so many of the chapters of my life thusfar, faith reared it’s determined auspicious mask and pounced into my step like a dragon in a Chinese parade. Deja vu. What? This again? Faith? In what? Ah, life…the universe…myself. Putting one foot in front of the other I started taking baby steps. I knew how to do this; I’ve been here before. It wasn’t long before I started receiving some gifts from the universe. He was one of them. Undoubtedly the one desire I wanted most. Now, here it is; here he is. Standing before me, admiring me, smiling at me, touching me. I remember thinking over and over again over our last two dates “He is real. He is real!” This is real. This is reality. This is the reason I never should have left in the first place.
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Sinners are saved solely by the Jesus Christ alone.. but life is also working out your own salvation and much more through Jesus Christ
(Eccl 12:1 KJV) Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou shalt say, I have no pleasure in them;
2 While the sun, or the light, or the moon, or the stars, be not darkened, nor the clouds return after the rain:
3 In the day when the keepers of the house shall tremble, and the strong men shall bow themselves, and the grinders cease because they are few, and those that look out of the windows be darkened,
4 And the doors shall be shut in the streets, when the sound of the grinding is low, and he shall rise up at the voice of the bird, and all the daughters of music shall be brought low;
5 Also when they shall be afraid of that which is high, and fears shall be in the way, and the almond tree shall flourish, and the grasshopper shall be a burden, and desire shall fail: because man goeth to his long home, and the mourners go about the streets:
6 Or ever the silver cord be loosed, or the golden bowl be broken, or the pitcher be broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern.
7 Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it.
8 Vanity of vanities, saith the preacher; all is vanity.
(Eccl 12:13 KJV) Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.
(Eccl 12:14 KJV) For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it be good, or whether it be evil.
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